Tuesday, 8 April 2014

Guilt: A-to-Z Challenge [8 April 2014]



Source: sciencelakes.com
Here is narration (fictitious):

I was obese since forever. It was that day, when I sat on the floor. Getting up with over 200 pounds of flesh wrapped around me was like dragging a huge mass against gravity. I had to take help of five people to help me get up. From that day onwards I was scared to sit on floor.

Everyday I carried a huge guilt. I was guilty for what I ate. The guilt for how much I ate and the guilt that people around me made to feel when their eyes popped out for what I ate. I tried to mellow my guilt by thinking about the hypocritical double standards of those people. But my guilt did not go.

I could not give up my weakness, that was food. I discovered that I can savour the taste of what ever I liked and started eating and throwing it out in the commode. I ate it all, but I did not let it ruin my body. I relished the taste but I did not let it make me feel guilty about adding pounds to my waist line. That was the day when I begin a journey towards Anorexia.

Two years into it, and I was all slim. I took pride in my body and in the fact that I still relish my food. I felt guilty whenever my food come out of anywhere except my mouth.  Gradually my eyes started dropping, I started looking like a monster, my health went bad and I was under intensive care. My body was not getting required nutrients, and my guilt was killing me for consuming the food, essence of survival.

It was the day I started to eat. It was the day I started to use my mouth only to eat. It was the day I started to use my body to kill the extra calorie through a natural mechanism. I started exercising, I became a fighter. I fought with my guilt and ate as much as I wanted, burned as much as I could. Today people pass by me and compliment me for my health. And they go, wooo hoo what a hot bod!

What is common guilt experienced by: 
  •  Fat person
  • Anorexic
  • Body Builder
Do not read further, but take a moment to think about it.
Badge : A-to-Z Challenge [April 2014]
Ok, I will  give you some clues: It is being projected as a dangerous commodity. You have to ensure that you keep its craving under control else you will not fit in the ideal image of a human being. 

Yes, some of you might have got it. For those who are still wondering what is it. It is food, period.


Author's Note: Relish your food and burn that guilt. 

P.S.: Through this narration, I tried to establish a connect between guilt and food into an emotional narration.


28 comments:

  1. Motivating post to all healthy and soon-to-be healthy people. A way for all to enjoy the food without feeling the guilt! :)

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    1. Yes food without guilt is the catch ;). Thanks Shesha.

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  2. Gosh Food Guilt, something I am experiencing from past few months !

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    1. Do not let guilt run over you. Accommodate minor lifestyle changes and you will be good :)

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  3. Try guilt is a issue for most people with food issues. Wonderful personal post. Thanks for sharing.

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  4. Powerfully written, Shine! Great for people (like me) who use food for comfort. And congratulations on the healthy changes you have made!

    LuAnn Braley
    AJ's Hooligans @AtoZChallenge
    Back Porchervations

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    1. @LuAnn: Thank you, but this is more of a fictitious account. I wanted to capture emotions attached to food and physique.

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  5. Love this post, Shine. What a great message! I've seen people swing from obesity to painfully thin and the emotional turmoil,not to mention the physical is quite traumatic.

    :-)

    Vidya Sury

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    1. I agree Vidya. Thank you for sharing your thoughts :)

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  6. This was such a lovely post. So motivating and powerful. I often use food for comfort. I envy you the transition you have made. You will inspire many with this post! ♥

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    1. It would have been great if I could inspire someone. This was more of a fictitious account. I hope this narration inspire people. :)

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  7. What's important for us to work on our body - be it gain some extra kilos or lose some, only for our own selves. We cannot make others love us unless we love ourselves first.

    P.S: It's always fun to read your posts.

    P.P.S: It's the second time I am writing the same post as the first got deleted due to reasons known to you only :-)


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    1. Thank you Anupriya.. Next time do not get hassled when I ask what are you writing :p

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  8. I was knowingly ignoring the food guilt I have everytime I eat. Now, this is an inspiring post :)
    Shalzzz|Loving Life
    Check out my latest at TaleofTwoTomatoes

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  9. Awesome!!! Much needed for people who are not shuttling between thin to fat to thin to fat!!! ;)

    ~S(t)ri
    Participant|AtoZ Challenge 2014
    Smile, it makes (y)our day!

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    1. Ahaa.. that is an interesting observation. Thanks

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  10. You know I eat so much when alone or when I have nothing to do... It's like an obsession! Have to control it...

    Random Thoughts Naba

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    1. My idea is - eat as much as u want, just make time for a long walk :)

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  11. A very good post on an important topic. Liked how you presented it in first-person narrative, brings home the point more strongly.

    Beauty Interprets, Expresses, Manifests the Eternal

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  12. You have to be so careful with those extra pounds. Getting an eating disorder is just sad.

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    1. Yes true.. But that craving, I tell you!

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  13. Shine, that was really emotional to read - a life changing journey indeed, which you told so well. May many be inspired by your story!

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    1. It is great to know that these words could narrate an emotional fable. Thanks Eli :)

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  14. Loved the note at the end...I guess as long as you do something to burn the extra's off what you enjoy, it really doesn't matter! Great post!

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