Guilt: A-to-Z Challenge [8 April 2014]

Source: sciencelakes.com

Here is narration (fictitious):

I was obese since forever. It was that day, when I sat on the floor. Getting up with over 200 pounds of flesh wrapped around me was like dragging a huge mass against gravity. I had to take help of five people to help me get up. From that day onwards I was scared to sit on floor.

Everyday I carried a huge guilt. I was guilty for what I ate. The guilt for how much I ate and the guilt that people around me made to feel when their eyes popped out for what I ate. I tried to mellow my guilt by thinking about the hypocritical double standards of those people. But my guilt did not go.

I could not give up my weakness, that was food. I discovered that I can savour the taste of what ever I liked and started eating and throwing it out in the commode. I ate it all, but I did not let it ruin my body. I relished the taste but I did not let it make me feel guilty about adding pounds to my waist line. That was the day when I begin a journey towards Anorexia.

Two years into it, and I was all slim. I took pride in my body and in the fact that I still relish my food. I felt guilty whenever my food come out of anywhere except my mouth.  Gradually my eyes started dropping, I started looking like a monster, my health went bad and I was under intensive care. My body was not getting required nutrients, and my guilt was killing me for consuming the food, essence of survival.

It was the day I started to eat. It was the day I started to use my mouth only to eat. It was the day I started to use my body to kill the extra calorie through a natural mechanism. I started exercising, I became a fighter. I fought with my guilt and ate as much as I wanted, burned as much as I could. Today people pass by me and compliment me for my health. And they go, wooo hoo what a hot bod!

What is common guilt experienced by: 

•  Fat person
• Anorexic
• Body Builder

Do not read further, but take a moment to think about it.

Badge : A-to-Z Challenge [April 2014]

Ok, I will  give you some clues: It is being projected as a dangerous commodity. You have to ensure that you keep its craving under control else you will not fit in the ideal image of a human being. 

Yes, some of you might have got it. For those who are still wondering what is it. It is food, period.


Author's Note: Relish your food and burn that guilt. 

P.S.: Through this narration, I tried to establish a connect between guilt and food into an emotional narration.