A part of me

Sometimes when I am up to sleep
A dream knocks on my mind
I am awake and dreaming
and this is what I find

Here's a long road
And not a sight of life
It is all deserted brown sand
and a zig-zag concrete line

I look back
It is similar both sides
Some move back, some move forth
It is a matter of a fight to find me

A part of me moves ahead
A part of me stays there
And a part of me goes back
Here's what I find

I moved back to pick up my broken self
I stayed to wait and see
I move ahead to embrace the unknown
Each part of me was more wiser when they came together.

Author's Note:  There is no right or wrong, it is just that each step teaches us something new.

A Hope

I hope that there will be a day when it will rain
And even birds will come out of shades
And they will dance by my side, as I get drenched 
And you will hold me by your side
And you will sing a song or two for me
And just to tell me that I am special for you

I hope that love will find me
And I will find true love in world full of fakes
And I will keep you as a treasure
And I will nurture you, protect you and be at your guard
And I will do that with no condition but one
that is for you to be mine forever

I hope to find love and kind words
And I hope that you say them as I regain my trust in love
And you say them again as you look in my eyes
And you say it again just to make me believe
that no matter how harsh the world is,
how badly I have been tossed over in the name of love
you will always be around and be mine

Author's Note: When Red, in The Shawshank Redemption, said - Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane. I buy his point. He says the right thing but with an unconvincing tone. Hope can drive you out of sanity. But who wants to remain sane. Andy was also insane in the sane world that can lock you up if you are

Remember Red, hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies. 

Author's Note: Hope is fulfilled, it does not die.

Reach for your Dreams

Whoever has come to be a being is here for a reason. Finding purpose in your being is perhaps the greatest  task we all are endowed to perform, all our lives. Many of us just go with the flow, take life as it comes, while many just can't get to sleep trying to decipher the reason why you have received God's calling to be on earth.

Does God have a script, and we all are acting as mere puppets to it - is it all decided in advance? Or does the god not know what is to come next, is it like an unscripted movie for him/her? He is also relishing the drama in each one of ours lives?

There could be tiny-miny bits of tasks that could have not been accomplished without you. You might have made a huge difference in someone's life. My question is whether your existence has been of any importance/use to you? What difference are you making in your life that can justify your existence.Are you a dreamer and an achiever for yourself?

Do not sleep over your dreams, let your dreams awaken, make you do something better for your better tomorrow. Each day, while the world broods over the economic losses, falling value of currency, make sure that rise higher - as an individual and as a self-supporter. Learn from the bad experiences, look for good in each situation, be a little pessimist - when it comes to preparing yourself to face the worse, but never get stuck - keep moving towards your goals.

Author's Note: Goals, no matter how insignificant they sound to the world, mean a lot. You need not broadcast them, but while you make way for a good night sleep, your goals could be what make you get a fulfilling one.

Finding Answers

It speaks through me, It speaks when I am locked in the room
It speaks when I look for it in endless hallows of words.
Those words that can make sense to me
Those words that can help sort things for me

Words that seethe through the voice and loud screams
Of the vendor or someone who chatted in a night street
I look for them in silence, try to find words in a blank screen
I try to find them making a sense to me in this world full of mindless logic

I want that illogical desire to become logical
These words drop clues in my dreams
Words that meant the world to me
I try to find answers to the questions that life throws at me

Through words you say, they say and every one said

I pick up those that most conveniently help me believe
In the lies that I keep telling myself
In the silence of night, it is a whole lot of story that repeats in my mind.

 Author's Note: Silence kills, at the same time it nurtures you to be strong, in this world full of hollow, meaningless words.

You might hate it, till you learn to live with it. It is not possible to find answer to each situation that we face, at times just leave it, and move on because from those we seek answers have done that, done that long ago. And your repeated wishes are falling in deaf ears.

P.S.: These are thoughts that cloud my mind when I have 101 degrees temperature, could not help but write them with trembling hands.

Belittled in Love

I extended my hand, he held it tight
but if he was to leave, why did he hold it?

I flew, he flew along and left in between
but if he was to wither, why did he fly for whatever little distance?

I ran till the end, he ran farther
but if he was to run further, why did he run along my path?

I waited, he did not notice
But if he did not notice, why did he look at me?

I said I want you, he did not listen
But if he did not listen, why did he lend an ear?



Author's Note: Emotional pain is worse than any physical injury, physical injury heals and people console you. Emotions torment you, your mind makes fun of you for being belittled in love. 

P.S.: Some people, just to satisfy their narcissistic tendencies, tend to belittle others. It is the love for convenience for them. But if someone belittles in love, that person is the world's biggest coward. As Bob Marley put's it in his quote (refer to the image).

P.P.S: What is important is that after being belittled you do not give that person any more opportunities to satisfy his sadist tendencies.

Get Some 'Me Time'

Have you ever been in a situation where you so badly wanted to get an answer and the person you seek response from is just deaf to your questions?
These people are either too bored of your questions, factoring in the fact that you repeatedly ask them, or they are amongst those category of human race who are Escapists. There are innumerable benefits of being an escapist - you do not have to be answerable for some misunderstandings, do not need to dig where you went wrong, you do not care and just live in the moment.

Here's some wisdom for escapists (though there is a possibility of them ignoring it) - Do not fly, fight off bad situations. If possible, make them better, but make a decision. If nothing works, then just let it be - you will not regret later in life.

And for those who seek answers from escapists, you need not find answers in words, but in actions. There are times when you need a 'Me' time, and I am amongst those who make time for the 'Me Time'. I no matter how tried, how unwell, I make sure that I make my way to the terrace and spend some time with myself, it rejuvenates me. No one can answer your doubts as clearly as your own mind, and your intuition.

Author's Note: You cannot wake someone who is pretending to be asleep, is an ancient Navajo proverb. They are the people who will not be of any help either to you or to themselves. They sleep, even while being awake.

Madras Cafe - Review

One man's terrorist is other man's revolutionary. 

This topic has never been spoken about in the Bollywood space, and thus I wanted to watch it. The movie revolves around the assassination of former prime minister Rajiv Gandhi, the LTTE (referred to as LTF in the movie) connection and the role played by RAW. It captured the sentiments of an Army Man's wife, it carried the message about how businesses run countries' national policies, it can become a nasty game. Politics is nothing but the information game and reinstating who is powerful in a region.

West wanted a strong hold in Indian subcontinent and India wanted to avert it, thus decided to intervene in Sri Lankan civil war during the 1990s. It showed failure of Indian military power, world's 4th largest military power to a revolutionay, Anna Bhaskara.

An army man confessing that the killing could have been averted. Although it was not clear to me how could it be averted?

Nargis Fakri role as a war correspondent, Jaya, was real, and her acting was far better than it was in Rockstar. Although I liked her in Rockstar as well.

John Abraham as Major Vikram Singh was naturally a hero. The movie was projected from his narrative perspective. I find John picking up on serious roles as a great decision. Even in Shootout at Wadala, I liked his role.

The songs are just great, I changed my hello tune to one of the songs from the movie Madras Cafe, Mera Kaun hai...

Author's Note: If you can see blood bath, become a war correspondent, and if you will puke when you see blood bath become a romantic novel writer. This though might be reflected in later posts.

P.S: I still have the image of Rajiv Gandhi's assassination intact, as we watched it on TV. And for a 7 years old me, it was something thrilling, full of horror.

P.P.S: This reminds me of an incident about one of the top business houses in India. There was a negative story about the business house carried by the Forbes Magazine. The Corporate Communications head was being targeted at by the company management for providing sensitive information to the media. Based on mere acquisitions, he was house arrested for 2 months, and threatened by the mafia. He ended up committing suicide. This is not an old story, happened recently, something like 2 months back. But there is no action that can possibly be taken against the company, because there is no proof.