Gold Filled Broken Trust

Trust, if lost once, cannot be regained. So are relations, there is some bitterness likely to remain and that does make it ugly. One of my friend kept telling me that once a cup is cracked, it will never be the same. I somehow felt that it can be the same and one day I came across this image on Facebook.

I just could not help but bring it to my friend's notice. This quotation convinced me that broken trust can be re-established, made more beautiful. I believe that quotations have deep meaning, and no matter what your emotional state is, while scrolling through Facebook wall you will find something that speaks of your state of mind.

On seeing this image, I went into a self realisation mode and tried to mend something that was broken for years, and after 1 month of trying I realised that I was not being a logical person, but an emotional fool. I did not care what everyone else suggested to me and just went on with whatever I could do to mend it. I realised that I should not try to fit in the lives of those who do not want me in theirs. It is painful to see them closing the door on my face. It is hurting to see that you do not find any place in someone's life who you thought so high of. But it is good to get clarity and I admire their straight-forwardness.

There's a catch in such a situation - The Reality Check. Is the image you carry, of the person in question, real? Sometimes we are so engrossed in our beliefs that we fail to acknowledge the pitfalls. I realised that I was just being human by being emotional, but it is not that emotions are welcome everywhere.

Author's Note: When in doubt, you back to the time when you suggested a friend what to do while your friend was in a tough situation. Your suggestions are more for you to implement and follow.

P.S.: Post this, my friend reiterated, no matter what you fill the cracks with, the cup is still cracked.

P.P.S: Here is Shesha's take on  the topic, Click here to read: Tale of a Gold-filled Broken Bowl.

The Devastating Dream

As still smog passes through a running train and,
the milk vendor waits at the railway crossways.
I get up in the morning,
with a cold smell of something burning.
It was up the hill,
in the woods that the forests caught fire.
They say it was the whirl-wind that caused the calamity,
I say it was you in my dreams that brought this fire.

Herds of sheep were running hay-wire,
and some horses were visibly tired.
They wanted to sleep, and rest in their home,
that got burned, it was the same place that caught fire.
I was wide awake, out of the dream and,
it was not me who wanted to sleep.
It was the tantamount need of having you with me,
That my mind was never without you even in dreams.


They stayed outside my chalet,
and it appeared that my lawn was their new home.
I got up and fed them with fodder,
offered them some water to drink.
I was happy to have them there,
as I know you would never come.
They will not fill your void,
but I will have many to dream of.

Author's Note: Sometime all that you need is a clarity and your mind is at peace. In dreams we reach for what our heart wants and does not take into consideration the reality. I dreamt of many things and some of them will become reality.

P.S.: A lame poetry with a lame mind, thank you for your time.

Mysteries of Love and Mind Games

"Love is like a wild flower, always found in unlike places."

You cannot condition your mind to love, not love or hate someone. However, no matter how you feel you are likely to test if the feelings are mutual. So there is a great possibility that you may try and put them in situations to know how they react. Then you will be able to lift clues, assume and infer what they feel for you.

It is easier in case of people you hate or do not love but when it comes to love, here's something this image profoundly explains:

How do you know if it is Love? Mind games do not work in case of love. If you are into such games then it is not love, it is more of a strategic, thought through decision to weigh your options. In love, you often overlook the bads and just go with the goods in a person. But the point is that you have to accept both the bad and the good. It is a completely different individual that you are considering here and not your clone. Refrain from thinking that you will change the person, get the one who closely fit your image.

For me it is love when (please add on to the list in the comments section)

• You get a text from him when you are thinking about him
• You call her when she is just to step for an exam and you wish her luck
• No matter after long you meet, it feels that you have been meeting forever
• You do not have to explain your goof-ups to someone
• You are sure that you are not just an option for someone

Love is simple, it is when someone cares too much for you. So what is it that matters, why do relationships fail, why do we complicate them? When people suggest that you be practical, it could sound hackneyed, and I bet you do not fall in this trap, you believe that you are different and better be treated like one. You break the rules, go against your principles, defy mindsets and just do what ever you feel could be done to get the answer to - If s/he genuinely loves me?

But in the end, you just have to live with the reality - take a stance - walk away or stay.

Author's Note: Perhaps that is the reason that I am so against the concept of so called arranged marriages. All that they want to know is how much money you make and are you a good cook. People hardly invest time in understanding the other person and start imposing the 'what you have to do to be the one for me' considerations.

P.S.: You never really stop loving someone, you just learn to live without them.

P.P.S.: Miseries of love sounds like a better title for this ;p

It Awaits You

The thought of walking in a tunnel, all darkened, quite and perhaps echoing your footsteps can be scary. But the wise men say that there is light at the end of it.

This has a deep meaning in itself. While we strive for enlightenment, attainment, success and material accomplishments, we often fumble, stumble and fall. Some of us find a treasure while being in the dark, while some have to get out there, find the light and be free.


This reminds me of my favourite movie, The Shawshak Redemption, where the protagonist Andy,played by Tim Robbins, finds his way out of the jail by digging a tunnel for 2 decades. If you have seen the movie, you know how filthy it was to make a way out of a narrow gutter, but what lied ahead was what kept him going.

I derive immense motivation from this movie, whenever something seem to not be working, not hapenning - I turn on my laptop and tune into it. I know that you do not get what you want in life, you get what you work for. Therefore, to find light at the end of the tunnel, you should be willing to walk in the dark, perhaps walk alone.

Author's Note:
The light that is at the end of tunnel awaits you, get up and do something about it. God might have a plan for each one of us but we have to execute it to make it happen. The tough times are just signals from thee almighty!

Love your Life

Yeah, right we keep cribbing about the should haves, would haves and could haves of the worlds. But now that when these are not realised what to do?

I am feeling content today that I did not leave an opportunity to talk my mind out, and no matter what - if you put across the truth you will be content. In this phase of emotional rigmarole, I often felt like a fool, but in the end I was sure of what I do not want from my life.

They say if you want to amuse God, tell him about your plans. 

While I fight hard to achieve what I plan, I sometimes picture god smiling at me and not amused. I feel that the god wants to tell each one of us that no one in this world knows what is to come next. Everyone is clueless, some just go with the flow, some get up & do something and some rely on others to make things happen for them. I am amongst those who will get up, and do something about it.

My pet line cannot be discounted here - the fittest survives. Do not let failure bog you down, find lessons in them and get up - if need be change your strategy - keep moving - like a river. This life is meant to be relished, each chapter in your life holds a lesson, make sure that you do not regret - take chances with it. There is no book on how to live your life, it's you who knows the best. Take chances, make mistakes and smile at them.

Author's Note: Leave no room for regrets! If you feel you did something wrong, do something to mend it.

P.S.: Love your life, it comes just once.

P.P.S: If you love life and love my being a part of your life, do drop in a few lines :)

Tick tock don't stop!

It takes me two days to wrap up my birthday celebrations.. And this one started on a lasting note. I did a few strange things, got carried away emotionally, but I do not regret them. I have the power to make good happen to me.

The best times during the celebration were:
- Nevitta's pout
- Rain and I got drenched (can't help it) and the fear on my sister's face that I will get hit my a bike.
- Nando's and my Kareena's pose picture :D
- No cake facial.. Sigh!
- My best buddies were with me on the D day <3 br="">

I am thankful for many people to be a part of my life, each one, the good ones, the bad ones, the ones who ended up hurting me and the ones I wish were with me right now. Thank you for being there and listening to my endless blabbers.. Those who know me know what it is like when I get into blabbering mode.

If all ends well, I will be ticking 30 next year.. wink. A very happy and rocking birthday to me..

Author's Note: I have resolved to look at things with a positive perspective and shoo away the otherwise.

Modi - The Prime Time Indian Tamasha

Secular state is meant to be a state where the government does not recognise the existence of any religion. Is BJP moving towards it? After the failed Hindutva shield, now we are witnessing a grave wave of Modi-ising BJP. Hinduism is not a word I get to hear in news anymore, and Modi promises to be the face of Indian democratic (read authoritarian democracy).

People feel that if you will get elected, you will replicate the Gujarat model to India. I foresee that you are going to be the Indian Prime Time Tamasha for some time now till we zero-on on the Prime Minister for 2014-2019. I wish to know will you be able to manage inflation better? and how will you do that? Will there be more opportunities for me to grow professionally? Will there be more jobs? Will I be able to travel safe at night or even during the day time? How much of my salary will be exempted from taxes? Will there be no power cuts?

But besides these typical questions, I wish to discuss something with Mr Modi. I do not care if he is a challenge to the congress party, whether he will adorn the throne of the Indian Prime Minister, whether his right-wing policies will help India shine or sparkle, but I have an ideological disconnect with him...

Disconnect 1 - Inflicting terror in the name of Religion. Does the burning of a train by allegedly a sect of society justify a civil war? I remember when I was in some conference and a Star News anchor shared his experience while covering Gujarat during the riots - He said ambulances were parked, police personnel stationed at the riot site, but no one was ready to help the injured. Ultimately we used the Star News van to take the injured man to the hospital. How will you ensure that you will not hide in your shell if you are the national ruler and some riots break somewhere?

Disconnect 2 - Choking the freedom of speech. When Indian Media, BBC, CNN extensively covered the riots, why was Al Jazeera, Arab based news channel, not permitted to cover, or for that matter even enter India? Tell me will you let me write my blog or will you be causing turmoil on my tweets? (much like Mr. Sibal has been doing lately)

I am wondering that why is Mr Modi not addressing people like me? Mr Modi, can we talk across the table and discuss our concerns, rather than trying to put across justifications to outsiders and being in news about Whartons of the world.

Author's Note: Once I was crossing North Campus, saw a poster, I tried to click the picture but it did not come out well. I thought I will click the next day.. But the next day there was no poster. The only thing I read on the posted that Modi is trying to unite the nation, and was paying a visit to my city. Political rivalry you see.

P.S.: Those who think that they are an appointed spokesperson for Mr Modi are more than welcome to comment and try hard to change my mind.

P.P.S.: To my friends, if you find me in jail once this post goes live, do come to pay me a visit or two.