The arrival of June in Delhi is not pleasant. Birds look for water, dogs are never found with their tongue tucked in, cows laze around and for humans it is the time when they got no time to move out, but to stay indoors, next to an AC that causes temperature inside her room go down, but throws all the heat outside.
And there she was, cursing the AC each time she is out in sun. Machines running on the concept of reverse 'carnot cycle' do not make stepping out of home a pleasant experience. June has arrived and her mind is full of questions. Questions about survival, questions about life, questions about friends & those fake ones, questions about people who either turned or will turn non-existent and questions about love.
For a few days she has been trying to make a big decision - a decision that once made will change her life forever. The question that haunted her forever was will she fall in love again? Will she adore someone more than she adored her first love? Will she care for someone more than she cared for him?
She started penning down in her diary, she still wanted to give him a chance, but she was scared - of a No. And if it would be a yes - she was scared of lies, being betrayed and left again. Because she needs someone who will love her unconditionally and did not want to be the only one who gave away all the conditions to be with him. She was sick of giving and not getting that unconditional love in return.
So she decided that she will not believe in love anymore. Her pure feelings did not make her strong she will keep her emotions on guard! She will play it on as a gamble.
Author's Note: It is not logical to fall in love with someone beyond any condition, but it is all fine when it is not coming from just one side.
P.S.: Matters of heart are like gambling, it is either a big loss or a huge win!
And there she was, cursing the AC each time she is out in sun. Machines running on the concept of reverse 'carnot cycle' do not make stepping out of home a pleasant experience. June has arrived and her mind is full of questions. Questions about survival, questions about life, questions about friends & those fake ones, questions about people who either turned or will turn non-existent and questions about love.
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For a few days she has been trying to make a big decision - a decision that once made will change her life forever. The question that haunted her forever was will she fall in love again? Will she adore someone more than she adored her first love? Will she care for someone more than she cared for him?
She started penning down in her diary, she still wanted to give him a chance, but she was scared - of a No. And if it would be a yes - she was scared of lies, being betrayed and left again. Because she needs someone who will love her unconditionally and did not want to be the only one who gave away all the conditions to be with him. She was sick of giving and not getting that unconditional love in return.
So she decided that she will not believe in love anymore. Her pure feelings did not make her strong she will keep her emotions on guard! She will play it on as a gamble.
Author's Note: It is not logical to fall in love with someone beyond any condition, but it is all fine when it is not coming from just one side.
P.S.: Matters of heart are like gambling, it is either a big loss or a huge win!
Firstly, I am also not very fond of the months May - June. They're kind of depressing. Somehow feel the heat gets onto your head and creates a mess. That's just my view. And of course, not able to step out in the scorching heat is another issue altogether. Everything seems so lifeless.
ReplyDeleteComing to the matters of the heart. Falling in love with someone is of course a gamble. Someone looses and someone gains. Those whoo loose think the other lucky ones get everything on platter. It natural to think so. But one needs to take a chance. No matter how tough it is. Get up, dust off yourself and get ready for a new chapter. Also time is the perfect healer. One will get bored and tired of over analysing and thinking and someday move on. No matter how pessimist one is just when they get hurt. Now the problem is if the cause of the problem (ex-lover, etc) keeps cropping up and appears to screw your happiness, all the efforts of moving on go in vain. Keeping the door (mind) open and allowing someone else to enter your world (at the right time and not forcefully) is crucial. Once you meet the right (and the final) one, you'll realise it's the dry and dreary phase of your life like in May/June has passed by and it's time for some shower of love :)
Yes, I agree with you. Especially the lines - No matter how tough it is. Get up, dust off yourself and get ready for a new chapter.
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Oh yeah...it's never a fair play when love is one-sided. I loved the way the month of June transitioned into a character in this post...I hope I got it right, if that was the way you intended it :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Vinodini.
DeleteIn the beginning, I did not want to make it obvious that it is a heart break story - that is why I focused on June :).
It just happens before you even realise it has.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy every moment of love and forget about the months
Weather never stays the same, so does love in some cases. Thank you for vising my blog :).
DeleteI liked the matter of the subject & the topic the most: "GAMBLING AWAY LOVE", its a very powerful & intense topic that made me read instantly.... Nice, its gambling, nobody can foresee it, one-sided hurts yet they fall for it, if both side love exists still there's always a fear of losing someday exists, if not the fear of losing a tinge of betrayal thus exists in the sub-conscious mind....is today's love...
ReplyDeleteBack then - It was easy to fall in love and tough to fall out of it.
DeleteNow - it is tough to fall in love and easy to fall out of it.
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